As human beings we can get comfortable in certain situations or routines. This can happen in good or bad routines. I know for me going to the doctor, getting treatments, and generally not feeling well were just everyday life and I was used to it. I got comfortable in it which sounds weird but it happens.
It has been a little over 3 years since I was diagnosed with cancer. In that time I got really used to being sick, going to the doctor, and getting treatments. It has been a year since my last major treatment and since then I have been feeling better and my doctor’s appointments have been tapering off. I have resting a lot and have been working towards getting my energy back. That chapter of my life is coming to an end.
God saw me through that chapter and I am so thankful for bringing my family and I through it. I have been healed from cancer.
A New Chapter In My Life
So hear I am at the beginning of a new year with a blank slate for my life. I have been praying for God to show me what to do with this new life that He has given me. A month or 2 ago I had felt that God had said for me to spend time with the kids as my wife went back to work during the tax season. This sounded great as I knew that I did not have the strength to return to work full-time myself.
This is when things got difficult.
For whatever reason things shifted for us financially to where money got really tight and I got really uncomfortable. My first reaction was to look for a job in order to solve of financial issues even though I knew that was probably not up to it physically. I talked with my wife about this and she voiced her concern about my physical limitations as well.
In the course of that conversation things shifted from me working to me staying home with the kids. As my wife started sharing some of her insight from when she was at home with the kids I was reminded of what God had previously showed me. It was not time for me to start working but time for me to spend with the kids. Things had come full circle.
I was struggling because I wasn’t doing things God’s way.
My Way is Wrong
In the Bible God is very clear that He does things differently then we do.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord . “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. – Isaiah 55:8-9
To me it does not make fiscal sense to not work and to stay home with the kids. But I believe God sees things different. I think that He thinks that having a parent home for our kids is more important then some extra money. Yes, things are tight financially. But that tightness often causes us to evaluate how we are spending and to make whatever adjustments that are necessary.
I also believe that there is another side to me staying home with the kids as well.
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, – Psalms 23:1-2
In these verses God is
causing making the sheep to rest yet He is providing everything they need and want. They are complete, not lacking in anything. God’s provision is based on obedience as opposed to direct work. He is another verse that demonstrates that:
But Samuel replied: “Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the Lord ? To obey is better than sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams. – 1 Samuel 15:22
Doing whatever God wants you to do is always better then doing things your way and they having to ask forgiveness when it doesn’t work out God’s way.
Sometimes in life God calls us to do things that seem contrary to what we think is the answer or solution. We forget that God’s resources are more then we ever need and that he can get them to us in any way that he pleases. When we try to do things on our own even if they do work out then we are talking the glory (credit) for it as opposed to giving it to God.
In my life I know that for this season in my life that I am supposed to stay home with the kids and work on increasing my energy. This does not directly bring money into our house, but it does put me in the place of obedience to God’s will so in return I can expect Him to meet our needs. It is tempting to just try to work anyway but in the long run I know that God’s way is better.
- Living Beyond Your Feelings: Controlling Emotions So They Don’t Control You – Joyce Meyer
- Obedience Is Better Than Sacrifice – LaTarsha Forbes
There is a way that appears to be right, but in the end it leads to death. - Proverbs 14:12
For the foolishness of God is wiser than human wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than human strength. - 1 Corinthians 1:25
Do not deceive yourselves. If any of you think you are wise by the standards of this age, you should become “fools” so that you may become wise. For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God’s sight. As it is written: “He catches the wise in their craftiness” ; - 1 Corinthians 3:18-19